Today it’s raining and it’s going to rain all day today. I don’t mind so much because it keeps it cool. The rain is soothing to listen to and the greens are so much greener when it’s all grey and cloudy out. But it does mean I have to take my walks inside. That’s not so bad because I have a long not enough way between the kitchen and front door to do a decent walk and I made a play list for walking inside. But I won’t get my sunlight for the day. Ah well. I have full spectrum light bulbs and take vitamin d anyway so I’ll be fine.
Since it’s the ninth I get my food stamps today. So as usual I made my list yesterday and when I woke up in the middle of the night per usual, I ordered the groceries from Walmart (I have Walmart plus) for seven in the morning. I needed eggs for breakfast.
Unfortunately I forgot to change the address back from when I was at my boys house. I barely caught it in time to cancel and had to reorder everything. So no eggs for breakfast. I ended up having a small frozen chimichanga, some ham and a yogurt. Not the greatest meal but not the worst. I had to get rid of the ham anyway, it had been in there a while and the chimichanga was only 260 calories so I needed more than just the yogurt to go with it and I had no fruit left.
Finally though my groceries came while I was in the middle of my therapy appointment. Luckily it wasn’t raining too hard and the bags didn’t get too wet. I got a piece of cake as I usually do when I order groceries but as a small win I did not order the Freindly’s ice cream cake individual cup too. But next time I’ll order the ice cream instead. It’s five hundred calories and the cake is seven twenty. Stupid two serving slice. But I had it for lunch a long with some sardines.
I’m debating taking my walk or not since I don’t exactly consider a piece of cake ‘lunch’, but I probably should. I’ll just do it upstairs and hope I don’t disturb my roommate too much. It’s not as if I have anything I really have to do anyway. I don’t want to make my habit too specific to eating in the dining room and walking after that before I go upstairs. I’m not good at dealing with disruptions to my routines when I have them.
Though I should have eaten in the dining room. I need to get out of the habit of eating sweets in private. It’s really hiding it from other people and their judgements and opinions and you know you get a lot of that when you’re fat. That’ll be the best part of being skinny, being able to eat an ice cream without being silently or not so silently judged for it. I shouldn’t have to feel ashamed of what I eat, no matter what I weigh, but that’s life I guess. Something for me to work on.
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